I’m shocked. Not just with one aspect of the launch, but many.
This experience has been a whirlwind.
The magazine was just a concept earlier this year, and has come to fruition in an amazing, and unexpected, way.
When I booked the show, I expected 150 people maximum to attend. We had over 300 attendees. (Holy shit.) To everyone who came, you’re the reason it was possible for me to pay the bands, to pay my staff, and to feel confident about throwing launch parties in the future. (There will be more!)
At one point in the night, amongst running around and trying to keep everyone’s sets on time, I went back to the Fun Nihilist booth to an almost empty box of magazines. My first thought was that they had either been stolen or hidden. Neither of these were true. We sold 80 percent of the magazines we ordered. What the fuck! You guys didn’t just come to party, you came to support, and I cannot express how incredibly grateful I am for that.
I’ve spent months working on this magazine, coordinating my staff and scheduling interviews and photoshoots with every ounce of my free time. I have to say, this is NOT easy. Booking an entire show, solidifying a venue space, interviewing and writing articles, and figuring out how to render all of your content into InDesign in only 56 pages… It’s not simple. It’s not easy. It’s definitely not fun. My perspective as to how other publications and bookers do their work has completely changed, and I have so much more admiration and respect for those who do it well.
The magazine is by no means perfect. We were strapped with staff, strapped with deadlines, and strapped for time. However, this is no excuse for many of the mistakes in the magazine. I assure you that magazines in the future will be more inclusive, more philosophical, and be much more of a resource to people. If you have an ideas for how we could improve the magazine, or if you know anyone who you think deserves recognition and should be in the next issue, please feel free to email me!
My sincerest thanks goes out to everyone who made this issue possible. (Yes, there’s a long thank you in the magazine. Yes, I’m going to give another one. Twelve point font on a 6×9 page is not enough space to show my gratitude.)
Thank you to Willow Sando-McCall, for being my first staff member and easily my most dedicated. For calming me down many MANY times as the launch approached. For coming out to weekends upon weekends of events with me. For upgrading her camera to get better shots for the magazine. For never, ever stopping to ask, “What can I help you with? Are you sure? Anything else?” You’ve been an invaluable member of this team. I couldn’t have done it all myself and I wouldn’t want to do it with anyone else.
Thank you to Yiwei Meng, for getting me in contact with the owner of the venue and for bringing wristbands the show. The show was only a success because I followed the pattern laid out by you in your own shows. Thank you for promoting it, thank you for coming, and thank you for putting so much time and energy into your own shows.
Thank you to Jorge Villa, for being so excited about the magazine from the moment I told you about it on our return from New York. For giving me your honest opinion on fonts and design choices. For being outspoken on the inclusivity of the magazine. For dedicating your own free time shooting the Chloe Feller and Girl Pusher spreads and creating images that I could’ve only dreamed of. I look forward to seeing your work in the future, as it amazes me every time.
Thank you to my videographers Mitsuko Orismekusa and Tanner Le Moine. Thank you for spending your night shooting the launch and for spending many other nights shooting performances for the site. How I ended up with such talented staff, I will never know.
Thank you to Jorge Liloy, the owner of the warehouse (The Factory) for being so accommodating and for having such an amazing space as a resource for the DIY scene. I love your mentality and I look forward to working with you in the future.
Thank you to everyone who worked the doors all night. You put my mind at ease and I knew my show was in good hands with you.
Thank you to everyone who worked the magazine vending booth all night! (Especially Christine! And Richie!) The night wouldn’t have gone nearly as well without you help. I’m grateful that such kind souls and amazing friends could be the faces of the magazine, if only for the night. I love you all.
Thank you to the BANDS. Every set was perfect. Thank you for being involved in my show, thank you for keeping the sets on time, and thank you for your support. I look forward to working with all of you in the future.
Again, thank you to everyone who came out. We wouldn’t be able to do what we do without such a thriving scene. It’s my absolute pleasure to be surrounded by so many talented and creative people.
I’m excited for the future of Fun Nihilist. I look forward to watching it grow, to meeting and interviewing more amazing and passionate people, to growing our staff, and to creating more content centered around our message.
Fuck it, life’s an illusion. I look forward to dancing with all of you in the future.
Photo courtesy of staff photographer Jorge Villa.